I can remember more than one occasion when my mind and my body were not in the same place at the same time. It seems I was always thinking about tomorrow or yesterday.
As a somewhat overburdened parent of four sons, I was supposed to be out for an evening of fun. Instead, my mind would be wondering if everything was okay at home. How were the boys doing with the sitter? What did I have to do when I got home to get ready for tomorrow's plans? I wonder if we're running out of toilet paper?
I carried my responsibility to the extreme. Most of this came from fear. I was afraid I wasn't doing it right. Who can have the lives of little people in their hands and not be concerned for the outcome? My self doubt was high. My self esteem was low.
Learning to live in the present has been such a blessing. Discovering that, if I take care of what's in front of me, the rest will fall into place has made all the difference. I also had to learn what's important and what's not. Food on the table is important. Whether all the clothes are matching is not.
Streamlining and simplifying my day became a key to relaxation. There are some things I have to do. There are some things I want to do. There are a whole lot of things that don' t matter.
Today I see beauty in the blue sky and the white snow. There were times in the past when I was too busy to even see it, much less, enjoy it.
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